8/20/09

TECHNICALLY it's 8/21/09 but I haven't gone to bed yet and I needed to post 8/20's picture of the day. There were so many beautiful pictures from the trip today it was hard to pick one.

These clouds were the light and fluffy ones that you see and identify shapes in as a child. As much as I travel I never really paid attention when flying in these conditions. It reminded me of being a little kid again, and due to the clouds comment from Ian a few days ago, I took millions of pictures, or 34. Here's me in wonderment with my hair thrown up in a rush.

I certainly am working to reattain the fun, innocent escapes of being a child. Everything seemed so magical. Can we ever really get that back? I'm not sure, but I'm sure going to try!

I had a BLAST yesterday hanging out with a friend. If it was a smart idea, I have no clue.

Stop It!

I absolutely love this wonderful piece of graffiti in my town. I always seem to be irritated when I come to this particular intersection, and while I imagine the little punk who did it meant this as a negative, I see it as a positive.

How often do we cut out all the crap? Stop worrying about bills, money, relationship or work stress, or any other adult matter? Let's cut it out and have some fun! This made it to my picture of the day :)

8/18/09

Here's our second picture. Not too much else going on. I realized that I don't stop to smell the roses enough courtesy of this guy on the left who so awesomely let me take a picture of his back. A simple remark about "The clouds look amazing today, I would love to be in that plane," set me off on another mission. A few times a day STOP! enjoy what is surrounding you.

365 Days of Photos and Other Random Ramblings

So I'm starting a new project today. I'm going to take at least one picture every day of anything, me, random objects, whatever I feel that day. This will go on for 365 days and track one year. I guess this means I need to go get a camera. Fun!

I also started planning my ITALY trip for Life Overhaul. It looks like it will be a 16 day trip (14 IN Italy, the rest flights) of which I will venture into the Venice, the Italian Riviera (Specifically Cinque Terre), Florence and Rome. Its going to take quite a while to save for so I'm planning on May 2011 with several other Life Overhaul objectives to be completed in the mean time. This also gives me a chance to get FLUENT (yes, I said FLUENT despite my many regards to the word) in Italian. With the means and opportunity I've been given I'm going to make more for thyself than those of my past have; I mean this solely in the means of travel. New experiences create character, adventure, spontaneity, friends, and most importantly enrichment. I'm done with being bored in the States. Lots of planning ahead, if you know anything I MUST SEE particularly in Venice, Cinque Terre, or Florence please let me know!

In other news, the fading out of the boy is going well. It's always fun to reprogram crappy people's phone numbers in your phone as something humorous. For example, the ex is now "Reminder you deserve better then this crap." Now when he decides I'm worth a text message it says "Hey Carly, I've been a jerk, I'm a loser, feel for me, blah blah" -(senders name) Reminder you deserve better than this crap. Woohoo! I do deserve better, peace out Holmes. Last night the condescending spitwad decided to let me know that "I hear Victor is nice this time of year," referring to my up-and-coming business trip. No response because REMINDER: I deserve better than this crap!

For those of you that don't know this part of me, I'm a freakin' name NERD. I've been doing some rocking upgrades on my combos and here are the top 3 for boys and girls:
Cecily Josepha Caius Adam
Stella Frances Jude Everett
Lucy Catherine Isaiah Giosuè

Yep. Somewhat unfortunate that they will not be used in who knows how long, as I adore them. But keep your grubby hands off, they're mine, for real.

There's No Reason

There's no reason to be pissed off, just opportunity to learn....

...that he's not worth it.

I fly home tomorrow :)

Don't dwell on the situation, don't make a mountain of a mole hill. Take what comes, learn your lesson, and don't return to the situation. Move on. Follow your dreams. Don't let anyone or any situation sidetrack what you really want out of life. You only get one, don't spend it trying to fix others, only they can want to improve themselves. Enjoy your accomplishments, strive for your goals and what you want you will achieve.

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Traveling, a Letter, and the Aftermath of the Future

Traveling can be incredibly lonely at times. Now is one of those times. I hate that every time I leave I don't have a clue what's going on, hell most of the time I'm home I don't have a clue what's going on between us.

I,

It's quite obvious what you're doing. I know and I don't acknowledge it. You are there when you want to be and disappear when you desire. I don't push you, I give you space. Once in a while it might be nice to get a "Hey did you make it in okay?" phone call. I really don't ask much of you, and your lack of thought or compassion is starting to wrap around my heart with barbed wire. I know you feel like shit about what you're doing but instead of changing you wallow in how horrible you feel about it. I saw how you looked when Mike gave me flowers. You back out of anything and everything that is worth something to you, but alas it is your life; you are free to make it as miserable as you like. I've done exactly what you're doing. I've been with someone like me (now) when I was someone like you. You're blowing it, and it's really a shame.
~C

Part of me wants to scream out at what he's doing, and part of me believes that anger and resentment for all of the little crap is building up bit by bit. It's been eight months. EIGHT months. The other part of me realizes that if I do bring it up I will hear the answers that I don't want to hear. I've learned that lesson. Simply put, if you crush me again it will destroy me. I know that, so let's follow you're plan and tug along like troopers until you move. Then we can blame it on the 20 minute drive and not have to deal with the aftermath.

So.Damn.Much.

I'm exhausted. Here's how my day is looking tomorrow, and how they have looked for 5 weeks straight:

5:00 a.m.- get up shower, get ready
6:00 a.m.- Go to Dulles
8:20 a.m.- Fly out of IAD to Cleveland, OH
9:30 a.m.- Land in Cleveland
10:00 a.m.- Rent from Enterprise
10:30 a.m.- Check in at hotel
10:45 a.m.- Grocery shopping for real food during trip
12:00 p.m.- Fedex Kinkos to make copies for meeting.
1:00 p.m.- Lunch
2:00 p.m.- Set up for Training
3:00 p.m.- Training
4:00 p.m.- Training
5:00 p.m.- Training
6:00 p.m.- Training
7:00 p.m.- End Training
7:00 p.m.- Web conference with boss for yearly performance review
8:00 p.m.- Dinner
9:00 p.m.- Work out
10:00 p.m.- Respond to E-mails
11:00 p.m.- Shower
12:00 a.m.- Bed.

For real. Long days have become my every day. I haven't made any progress on my Life Overhaul project. I leave in less than 6 hours, and I haven't packed, laundry is still drying and I have to sleep before this crazy 15 hour day tomorrow.

And the one person who keeps me sane... not here. Another broken promise for another day.